Till September.

Hey,

Is it a long time considering my last blog was on 24 March this year?

Maybe it is a long time, but how did time fly? I thought to write a series of my Mumbai blog and the next thing I remembered was that there was a draft of a blog about Mumbai that I never posted. Let it be that way. 

So I wanted to give an update I got a job in September and I am not sure how I feel about it. Having a job makes you feel secure but in my case, it makes me nervous I planned to have a job when everything went south but I got the job when I hadn't even started doing things I mean I wanted to go abroad, have a good gate score, start a company, have a PhD and my last option was to have a job. I don't understand how it works I have been trying to explain to everyone that I got 9.5 in 10th, 966 in inter, 93.5 percentile in jee, and 7514 rank in eamcet I always brag about these things but I never worked hard like I might work in last month of preparation for exam and I could score these what if I prepared wholeheartedly for hours without distraction...ok we might not know what will happen because I won't do that. But whatever I worked in last month I worked with my whole heart no sleep no food no entertainment I even have days where I studied on an empty stomach ( ok there are all probably the Sundays, I'm a hosteler) but I did work hard. I am not here to settle right? 

I don't even understand why people don't believe I sat in placements because I believed I wouldn't get the part. I was 100% sure that I wouldn't get that so I thought why don't I give it a try for it? Even after the interview, I was sure I screwed things up like I had my umms and hmms while talking I couldn't convey everything I thought I would convey and I didn't write everything I did on my resume I had to leave a few things due to a few reasons so I was confident enough that I wouldn't get it until I saw my name on the list. My exact reaction was what????? 

Ok even after getting the part I still feel I am missing something out. Am I giving up on my dreams? Am I settling for things? 

Anyhow I will figure this out at the end because I believe whatever is written in faith cannot be changed if I am destined to do that I will do it...so folks for now let God decide it. Have a great day everyone.

Revealed?

Knock! Knock!

Who's there? 

My second blog🤭

So We all love to play the knock knock game, but have you ever thought if your life was a game too? Where winning or losing never matters, but playing does.

In my first blog, I began talkimg abour my journey on a cozy and comfortable bus. However, as night fell, thunder rumbled and it began to rain. While rain is a common occurrence, my trip out of state to Mumbai was not. Perhaps the weather was a sign that I should not have traveled, or maybe it was a sign of the joy that nature felt at my bold decision to journey to Mumbai. Though the ride was bumpy and difficult, I eventually reached my destination.

The question on everyone's mind is why did I go to Mumbai? Let's save that for my next blog - some things are worth waiting. 

Reference: Mumbai is the financial capital India.

Introduction

Hola, people!!

Do you really read my blog? if yes. 

Thank you for reading my blog. I hope you are enjoying it.

How shall i start? 

Ok!! Let me begin by sharing my journey, which started with some hurdles. I thought Amazon would never disappoint me, but it did. I wanted to book a bus, but it wouldn't take my request. You can imagine me with one bag at the back, which was at full capacity, and two bags in my hands, trying to book a bus. I didn't understand what to do, so I called my dad. He suggested that I call the travel agent directly, and I did. The agent asked me to go to a specific location, and the bus would arrive in 20 minutes. With these two bags in my hand and one at my back, I ran towards the metro station, took the train, and reached the location. When I called the bus driver, he asked me to go to another location. As I had no other option, I went there, and the bus arrived. You know what's special about this? The price for the bus ticket was not yet finalised. Of course, as Indians, we usually finalise it by bargaining, which was done. After boarding the bus, I started enjoying the journey. The bus was incredibly good, and I never knew something affordable could be so good. Sorry, I forgot to tell you where I was going. Do you want to find out? Stay tuned for my next blog post.

Happy Blogging!

P.S.: Travels buses stop at Zam Zam Bakery (Paradise, Secunderabad).

Reference: Took metro from Tarnaka to Paradise. Bus ticket was finalised at 1100 rupees.

Shh!! Don't Open This! 😂

I said not to..but Glad you did! Thank you for not listening to me!

But How did they put up with me? 

A billion-dollar question for me? 

My parents always tell me about me being arrogant, Self-confident, self-obsessed, and all!! 

They said I was the most notorious one in the school😂

I don't understand why people exaggerate about doing business or about startups! what is the minimum age to be an entrepreneur? 

So this was before 4 class ig. If i remember one day I was being called to the principal's office for doing business at school. can you believe it??😂😂 it seems I used to sell toys, fans, and chocolates(which were for a rupee back then and I sold them based on the person ranging from 2 rupees to 5 rupees) I made a profit and one day i was confident enough that I would go alone to home without going in the regular auto I would go in my transport how stupid it is? I remember I was caught because my bag was full of coins🤣

I took one rupee and made around 50 I guess... 

I saw a shop that was lending cycles per hour basis and I did that for a bit this time I told my dad about it!! 

But this whole time I never craved money because I knew I would earn enough money if I wanted to... 

Now was I notorious or not? 

On the other hand, I was innocent too, And not to mention topper😂without studying... I never came last in the class because when I compete I would end up being at the top. I know what I am capable of!! because having brains and using them are two different things and I don't do either of them😌 I have theories, theories which can't be explained but implemented... 

In recent times I got to know I am good at marketing😂 Ok I am a stop for all the things but what can I do? am I good at all things!! 

This blog is only about acknowledging my skills✨

It will take time for people to afford platinum because they are busy affording gold... lmao😂

Ok Yaar!! Fine😌

I don't know how many people think of me as a positive person. I am sure most of them think I am a negative person!!😂😂

We were preparing for an exam and I was like what if this question comes today for the test... Period... (My friends were with an expression to kill me) I don't know why I would say that but it's just a what-if case🤧 I couldn't help myself without saying that. Saying that doesn't mean I am a negative person... You can call me a self-conscious person at least. 

Here is a clip from my life❤

So I was conversing with my friend recently and I got to know that I was well known in his family... I was like how?? You guys should have seen my expression it was epic I guarantee you. He went on to even say that his sister even asks sometimes what I am doing...Now it was overhead...How could I not know that?? I am always aware of myself but I didn't know this!! So I went on to ask my friend how could your family know me... He quoted " When we joined this college online you used to be good with me and you used to send the answers".That's it just being nice made me a good person... That's simple right!! I don't know why if I care about a person I could go to extreme ends to help them in whatever way I can... 

Sometimes unknowingly you are a good person in someone's life - Now does it make you a negative person? because in some people's lives, you might be a negative person and a positive one in other stories. Just cling on!! Because you do not know all the chapters of the IPC(Indian Pharmacopeia) All the rules and regulations are not understood until all are read so Just go with the flow and don't give a damn about others' thoughts because you don't have one book to read!! You have around a couple of editions to read in Ipc. 

I hope at least this time I get good grades... Pharma is lub until you start memorizing chapter 2 (Preparation, properties of API) Please someone help me with it😂

To all my posts pending in the draft... i'm gonna finish you soon( Pov- Not a pick-up line) 

Gate 2024!! ✨

 

This is a statement, not a quote. Today I wrote my GATE 2023 exam finally. I used this as an excuse for procrastination, I guess. I left my German classes for this, and here I am with an experience to share. It was 2 months ago when I acknowledged the GATE exam dates were out. After acknowledging it, what most people do? Act, right? I didn't act at all... How could I? I didn't have the adrenaline rush to do so. But after exactly 1 month and 25 days, there it came... all at once: the adrenaline rush, fear of the exam, stress, assignments, syllabus completions, NMD events, and even Formula E car racing. I never realized I would pull myself out. So while preparing for my exam, there was a constant reminder at home to do well. Every time there was a reminder, I snoozed it off by saying I will do it... But did I really do it? While preparing, I understood I could not do any subjective questions, so I promised myself I would only do aptitude and maths (my favorite one). Today, I am satisfied because I kept my promise to myself. The countdown starts for "GATE 2024".😎🙌

Btw Thank you for buying the tickets for me!! We will go for sure next time🥹❤️

#GATE2023 #ExamStruggle #KeepGoing #NeverGiveUp #StayMotivated

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Hey I am back again!

I heard this somewhere

JEE is considered to be one of the toughest exams, and if you're attempting it, you might be feeling nervous and scared when you can't solve a problem. But did you know that out of the 9 lakh people who write JEE, Out of 9 lakh people even if 1 lakh were toppers and the rest 8 are average people just like us? So, there are 8 lakh people who feel the same way you do and you're not alone.

The question we should ask ourselves during the exam is what sets us apart from the 8 lakh people. Is it giving up or trying to solve at least one question correctly? Or using what little brain we have left and applying common sense? Most of the questions in JEE are general and can be solved with basic formulas.

 In one JEE exam, the highest score was -1! Can you imagine that, just submitting your paper without attempting any questions would have earned you the first rank! So, relax my dear friend, go with the flow, and always attempt to do what you know perfectly. If you're unsure, try to solve it to the best of your abilities, and if you're confident in your answer, select that option. If not, leave it.

And remember how lucky you are, because you already know that the correct answer lies within the four options given. So, don't panic, just chill bro

 As Lord Krishna says-"samay hi samajeyaga".

P.S. This is based on my personal experience. No offense intended and None taken!! 😌😂

Random Thoughts

 So we were always told that Lord Rama saves Sita devi from Ravanasura...Right?? 

Wait what if just what if... it's the reverse or converse of what we are told from the time. What if Sita devi saves lord Rama from Ravanasura. what?? it would be crazy to think in that way right but whose loss it's just imagination right...now let's say for instance just for instance what if Ravanasura and Lord Rama were the same people...That's it!! it would be the craziest thing you would hear right...

Now Hear me out for a few minutes!!

If Lord Rama was suffering from a personality disorder that had a wrong side and a good side and the good side was named Rama and the Bad side was called Ravanasura. Now if we see correctly then People say there isn't a person most knowledgeable as Lord Rama so does Ravanasura. No one is as powerful as Lord Rama so does Ravanasura. No one is as glamorous as Lord Rama and so does Ravanasura right most of the qualities of both are the same. why can't there be a scenario both are the same person with different names and personalities. Now when sita finds out this she tries to save him from the wrong side by finding the treatment for which they go all over the world for the treatment and at last she finds it and saves him from himself. We know to what length women can go to save their loved ones then this could also be true

I know there are proofs and all but it's just an if case and imagination. Imagination does not have boundaries, my friend. 

Let me know your thoughts about this if you read this

Thank You.

Teju akka❤

Hey Tejuuuuuu❤

Hey kiddooo love you so muchhhhhh... 

it's been a long time I talked with someone and that for 2 hrs. Thank for listening all my bak bak. Thank you for the talk and suggestions. Many say I am not a good learner so forgive me if I couldn't fulfill all the things I promised. But as you said let results speak. let's see what happens. Yes, You are self made Queen. A powerful colleen. Whatever you said inspired me. You have done really a phenomenal work.Yes you have helped many in whatever way you can. When you said "why should we get recognised when we are working for our future and our goals " I was amazed. how could I miss that perception. Thank you for accepting me the way I am and trusting me. You know what you have done for me😂even when I won't say you will take the credit, Yes we should be that way. when we do something we should take and credit thank you Tejuuuuuu akkaaaaaa for today. 

Mawaaaa❤

Does right people come into life at the right timing? 

I never knew I would meet a person who is the most kindest person in the room. I never knew I would meet the most wisest person. I never knew I would meet a person who has answer for every Sorrow. I never knew I would meet a Person Who makes me happy even in my saddest days. I never knew I would meet a person who made me understand how valuable I am. A person who never leaves my side. a person who understands me guides me teaches me in my journey. I got a person to share things and not get judged and without the our bond shaken. I am grateful for that person not most of them get them. Thank You Mawaaa for coming into my life. 

I hope you remember the day I was scared to talk with you to the day I never stopped talking with you. Mawaaaa❤Thank You making the timing right always. 

Am I Scared? Do I deserve this?

Am I Scared? Do I deserve this?

Walking down the streets

Walking down the same lane

I was scared...!

I was walking alone, taking small steps at a time

Yet I was scared

I know it was late in the night

But I didn't understand what scared me more

was it the darkness or being alone

was it me not trying to take long steps or me not thinking about having someone with me at that time

was it me not having charging/backup in my phone or me not having my career planned

was it me not working on myself or was it me not getting involved in things I should

was it a shred of light that put on hope or was it the silence trying to tell you don't deserve today...!!

P.S.

Today, while I was returning to my hostel after hanging out with a couple of my friends it was too late so I took the metro even when I knew could wait for some more time for a bus or manage auto I took the metro I didn't understand why I did it or what my decision was based on yet I took it... after reaching I could again wait for the bus yet I decided to walk till my hostel... While I was doing so I found myself walking slowly towards the darkness I was taking small steps at a time I was scared not because something might happen but about the uncertainty of my decisions and many things and suddenly the lights were on the darkness was no more it made me realize whatever phase it might be it will pass on let the time heal itself and whatever the situation might be I would at least take small steps at a time until it lights up again... I know the ease of my life and what I could do with it... It would take time but definitely, I would achieve whatever I want to...! It takes time and people to believe and i got both❤️

We might not have answers for all answers but we know answers for everything

I am not talking about exams even though its another story 

Yes when someone asks us something we choose not to reply it's not because we can't answer its because we don't want to hurt anyone's feelings

I have seen many people not saying anything and being silent even when they have all the rights to say a word but they don't it's all because they don't want to hurt it doesn't mean they are weak...

Not everyone you talk to will be genuine with you...Not everyone shows their intentions at first...

But never leave people who are true and genuine to you least you could do is never hurt them all they want is to do and be good...!

Unsaid Thoughts and Words

You get up!

Yes You come out and you get succeed

Then what do you do?

You celebrate, am I right?

Yes we should, we should celebrate because we worked hard for it

But

Never forget the people who helped you get there, Never forget people who were standing with you even when you were not worthy of anything, Never forget people who encouraged you to become what you are now, Also never forget people who gave you negatives that helped you correct yourself and get there where you are now, people who were with you whole time for all your ups and downs, people who you could trust with anything..those people are always bliss...!

Cutting off will never do better...! Distancing will not do any good!!

You were yourself because someone was over there to watch out and say you are wrong and you might end up in trouble

I am grateful and thankful to all the people who helped me to get where I am...!

- Unsaid Thoughts and Words

 One day, we know when we are not going to meet for a long time... May be months to years, we may not have courage to show up. Yet we do remember all the moments from the start when we met to the day we are going to never meet again. Then, I hope we get to say a better good bye... The good bye which we will not have in a long time again... Just remember whatever you might be or I might be... call it in and I will do my best to show up.❤️

-Hope this day never comes

I always thought my life is hard and Like me, many among us believe there is life is hard... 

oh my dear friend

Do you know what happened today, What I saw and what I heard today completely change my view on life being hard well it said you are taking your life for granted, and well as it quotes me I think it binds you the same... 

so today I went to a place with my brother for some reason and we were asked to wait so I saw a place to sit I asked my brother to sit and I went out to sit on the steps so I could peacefully reply to a text I haven't been reverting... while I doing I was happy in those moments there came a small girl cute one doing her thing I could notice a hair band with a small device I thought it was a hearing aid as my brother had so I went on do my thing then after few moments my parents arrived at the venue and there were doing the same waiting for our turn to come and when my dad saw that hair band he pointed out and said see its cochlear implantation(sorry if I spelled it wrong) so this implantation is like putting a device by drilling a hole kind of thing which is nearer to the brain for better hearing... When I realized that it was the same I saw on that cute little girl... I couldn't talk for a few moments at all... all I could think was why only they? why never wanted that to happen to them? why what wrong could a 2-3 years could have done so god had to punish them? 

and it's not the only thing I met a mother who told me you are lucky and your parents too even when you have a brother with that hearing disability you are lucky because you are going to guide him through life but I have two daughters with the same disability all I could see was pain... which they couldn't convey to the world and which even couldn't be conveyed... 

These were all the things i know where i went is a place filled with stories which are similar to these are as far as i know there were about 30 people in the room... 

So bottom line...Just be grateful for what you have...if you want to thank a person let them know if you want to tell a person you love them let them know... 

Oh Dear my friend if you think life is too hard to remember you are one out of billions of people who are thinking the same what makes the difference between you and them is... Be grateful for what you have and It will just pass on soon and everything will be okay! and remember they are also people for whom your life is always a luxury so enjoy it when you have it... 

The urge of being simplified

Why is it so that we talk with everyone the same way I mean how can people speak the same way and say everyone has a different pace of learning and understanding. For the past few days, it has been bugging me and seeing people around me talk like pros and make others think like they are pros what's in it what's the deal. People speak about maturity like it's no deal but most people forget that maturity isn't about getting elder it's about being understandable by others and most importantly understanding others. From the past few years or from my experience which I had from my little life journey I understood that when we want to convey something start from the very beginning if you want to explain something just remember that they are hearing it for the very first time so even basic things would be new to them so tell them very patiently Because we don't know how people will grasp things so when we start with basics that's the case when can make ourself being understood. yesterday someone said to me what can I have experience with 20 years of age. I replied saying what do you want to learn I have known almost everything that one should know in a lifetime. when you are with a group of people let yourself understand what level you should start with first there's always a way to make everyone understand but getting everyone on the same page will always start from basic

Is it ok to make mistakes...?

I went to repair my earphones... the catch was it was working perfectly when I switched them on they were on and also they made a sound saying they were on... but when I tried to play a song all I could hear was silence so I thought to go for repairing them so I went to tried to find service centers near me and I found few of them I decided to visit them so I selected one and I went over there when I reached the location I found it was closed since last month first thing I couldn't find it... so I checked it online and found it was closed since a month... now I had no option other than returning back or else going to another so I returned home this was a few days back... and today I again went to another store and I found myself circling to and fro near to store as I couldn't find it so I decided to ask someone and I did... I found it was somewhere inside and building so I went to check it and when I reached and had my turn to let him look at my earphones... he after listening to my issue he asked whether I did try to connect it with other phones or not... that's it I understood there was no mistake with the earphones it was the phone so I decided to go over the mobile store to enquire the same moment and I left for it and when I was there he asked me whether I tried resetting my phone and he also asked whether I had backup or not... I didn't have a backup so I have to return home when I got home I started backing my data after doing it started resetting my Bluetooth setting which did its thing and my Bluetooth was functioning properly again as usual normal... 

if I could check my Bluetooth with other devices I would directly go to the mobile store which would save one day

if I could reset my Bluetooth setting then I could have saved the whole 2-3 days right...? 

so basically I made a mistake of checking my Bluetooth with other devices right...? 

but it was fine, I learned many things along the way

I could visit new places

now I do have a backup for my mobile

I could do a few things along the way

most importantly it kept me busy and I was traveling the whole time...❤

Yes it's totally ok to make mistakes but if we don't learn from it then its a big mistake

After a long time I feel void... they are mixed feelings... I am just fed up with everyone judging me over and over again on my face. Being nice, having a smiling face, talking from heart has become too nice to the people that they start judging you, you know right we can sense that we are being judged... even after knowing we talk with a smile and tolerate you because we are raised good it doesn't mean we can't speak back on your face we just don't want to hurt you for being mean on face... i know I am better in my own way and I don't need someone's validation... I know how people are...just by seeing and talking to them because I was in a campus without phones and connected to the world and I survived it I talked with thousand people I know how everyone deals with their struggles.. perks of being in hostel is that it teaches you one or two to survive in this world of rat race... people say i don't have control on body and I don't know value of money... what I don't know really is where were they when I used to go empty stomach whole day due to food I didn't like at hostel... where were they even when I had money I controlled my self not eating because I didn't want to waste money... people say I am a bad person...where I help a random stranger for reason and bring smiles on people around me... I never expect anything from anyone and for good I never say anything to anyone... if I do it is something which you should trust me rather than judging me... I have been through all kinds of conversations... I could be your greatest supporter or audience all it needs that the way you take my words... when I took vaarc text I got my results as multimodal... which means I can be thought in any way you can teach me through audio message or text message visuals or any form of teaching... I am that person who went to lot of transitions and phases of life don't you think life didn't taught me one or two good things... 

After all I am ____ person... Mixed feelings or void it doesn't matter anymore... 

 One of my friends said" How tensed I might I be but I always pretend to be cool on outside" and I really loved it because it's totally true and not everyone can see and understand it I should probably be cool whatever the situation might be because I feel many people count on me and even i scared I will pretend not to be...

Few days earlier we ran out of hotstar membership I was in need of it without spending money so I turned to my friend circle and started asking them and I couldn't find it so I just left it and from then I started thinking whom to ask and where would I get but I wasn't worrying because it was just subconscious thought and today one of friends was looking for something even I couldn't help him he helped me giving the membership 

Somebody said "for something to happen you should believe enough for it happen" And it's absolutely true

Just believe in your self and let universe do it's work❤

so a few weeks ago my friend said can we have call ...I was busy so I couldn't call him and after a few days he again directly called me this time I was free so I talked with him...so what do friends do when they have a call after a long time....they go down memory lane right....?
so he started it and it went from the things we did together to things we have gone through...that moment I realized what I was missing... I could find myself living in the moment for an hour...we don't have a pic together but we have many memories together...we started from bathing early in the Morning not to study but to steal the stationery from the staffroom to food we hate to the food we are missing the most... I still remember the last day I was coming from the hostel where I was in the hurry to get out of the hostel and now I am releasing I was not in the hurry to get out of the hostel I was in the hurry to get lost in this world...! That even when I knew it will take time to meet again we could give send off's to each other but I don't know now if we have a chance to get back again we can leave each other the same day we did that day... now I feel lucky enough to have beautiful memories which could look childish yet memorable for me...❤️That one hour made me realize what I couldn't get from anyone whoever they might be what I have been missing in life...I was lucky enough to watch and understand people... I was lucky enough to get many qualities from my hostel life....a life with memories and a life with lessons