Hey,
Is it a long time considering my last blog was on 24 March this year?
Maybe it is a long time, but how did time fly? I thought to write a series of my Mumbai blog and the next thing I remembered was that there was a draft of a blog about Mumbai that I never posted. Let it be that way.
So I wanted to give an update I got a job in September and I am not sure how I feel about it. Having a job makes you feel secure but in my case, it makes me nervous I planned to have a job when everything went south but I got the job when I hadn't even started doing things I mean I wanted to go abroad, have a good gate score, start a company, have a PhD and my last option was to have a job. I don't understand how it works I have been trying to explain to everyone that I got 9.5 in 10th, 966 in inter, 93.5 percentile in jee, and 7514 rank in eamcet I always brag about these things but I never worked hard like I might work in last month of preparation for exam and I could score these what if I prepared wholeheartedly for hours without distraction...ok we might not know what will happen because I won't do that. But whatever I worked in last month I worked with my whole heart no sleep no food no entertainment I even have days where I studied on an empty stomach ( ok there are all probably the Sundays, I'm a hosteler) but I did work hard. I am not here to settle right?
I don't even understand why people don't believe I sat in placements because I believed I wouldn't get the part. I was 100% sure that I wouldn't get that so I thought why don't I give it a try for it? Even after the interview, I was sure I screwed things up like I had my umms and hmms while talking I couldn't convey everything I thought I would convey and I didn't write everything I did on my resume I had to leave a few things due to a few reasons so I was confident enough that I wouldn't get it until I saw my name on the list. My exact reaction was what?????
Ok even after getting the part I still feel I am missing something out. Am I giving up on my dreams? Am I settling for things?
Anyhow I will figure this out at the end because I believe whatever is written in faith cannot be changed if I am destined to do that I will do it...so folks for now let God decide it. Have a great day everyone.
